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10:00am 05/02/2010
 
 
firesshadow
Looking for people to go to Mayhem Fest with this July!

http://www.rockstarmayhemfest.com/mayhem/index.asp

Anyone interested?
 
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Hell yea!  
10:28am 11/12/2009
 
 
firesshadow

My Badubadu brings all the boys to the yard
and they're like
it's better than yours.

Which song was this lyric from?

Get your own lyrics:
 
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I want to kill tiny cute things >:(  
10:30am 23/11/2009
 
 
firesshadow
So I am fairly certain that the only hour of sleep I got was this morning after the alarm clock went off. The ferrets were up all fucking night chewing on bottles, digging their food everywhere, and making a general ruckus that made me want to kill them. Even when I woke up Athena decided it was a good idea to keep trying to get in my bag and come to work with me so she could freeze in the car for at least 8 hours.

On top of this I nearly got into a couple of accidents on the way into work. The whole while debating if I should indeed even be going to work on so few hours of sleep. Some how and for some reason I am here at work. Let us hope I survive the day and the drive home.

Lastly I need to have a talk with Savage. Either I am sleeping at home on Sundays from now on or the ferrets are getting locked up and the bars are having something bad tasting put on them so Nemesis won't bite them all night. Because I have lost far too many nights of sleep and this is basically the last straw.
mood: tiredtired
 
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*sigh*  
09:47am 19/10/2009
 
 
firesshadow
Many of you, especially you hun, already know about this so feel free to just skim over it if you want, but I want to put my thoughts down and such. I am also taking suggestions and ideas...

So Deidre and I have recently hit a road block in our relationship. That road block is a LARP (Live Action Role Playing Game) called Steam and Cinder (www.be-epic.com).

Before I met Deidre I got involved in LARPing. I love it very much. You portray a character or monster at a boy or girl scout camp out in the woods in either role play, mock combat, or both as the situation warrants. Costuming and make up is frequently involved. The best way I have found to describe this is full immersion improvisational theater. It involves rules like any other game, but otherwise is a full out play in which you play a part. I find this very fun, better then video games or table top games, mostly because of how fully immersive it can be.

About a year into our relationship I started working at Turbine. A video game company full of nerds and geeks. Well inevitably I rediscovered LARPing, as I had left my first one for many reasons. I began having fun with this quasi-sport-game-play thing again and because of that I found Steam and Cinders.

Steam and Cinders is a steampunk (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Steampunk) LARP. And I have truly fallen in love with it. I love the system, the people, the lore and world. My only complaints are that there is 1 outdoor shower and the site is relatively small, but these pale in comparison to the reasons I love it.

Ultimately it is an expensive and time consuming hobby. Costuming and weapons cost money, events cost money, supplies cost money and an entire weekend is dedicated to this. Deidre says she feels like we don't do enough together and losing both a weekend and all that money to do things with becomes a problem. I'm not sure I agree. The money is partly true, but we only went to movies every so often and we still do on occasion. The time we do lose, but it's also only 6 weekends a year out of 52. Her counter argument is that those 6 weekends are during the best time of the year to do things. I still feel there are 3 other weekends each of those months.

I think a large part of the problem is her parents. They pressure her all the time about a job, yet at the same time say she doesn't do enough around the house, when every weekend I am there I know we complete a handful of chores and take up most of the day doing it. I really would like to get her out of that house, so that A) they can see what they are missing and B) I could see her more often which I think would help this situation.

Another thing I think would help is if she tried LARPing and liked it. But too many things are there to consider. I won't go into them all but suffice it to say that she doesn't feel with her limitations she could play a character she would enjoy. She really doesn't like the idea of camping either. On top of that she feels the character she would design wouldn't hang around with the ones I and my friend have designed. Lastly, she isn't completely interested in the concepts and racces of this particular LARP. Being a Sci-Fi fan, and hating fantasy leaves many LARPs out of the question and a handful teetering, such as S & C.

We are currently stuck at a stand still. She would like it if I stopped LARPing or at the very least LARPed less. I feel that I shouldn't have to do such a thing. I miss her on the weekend, but at the same time I still dedicate those other 46 weekends to her. On top of that I feel and she has agreed that if we saw each other during the week this would be less of an issue. As it stands that isn't possible right now, but I think of it as we will eventually have that living situation.

As it all pans out I have no idea what to do right now... I want to avoid cutting time out of the LARP, but I also love her and don't want her to feel like I am picking the LARP over her. Right now I am mulling things over and hoping to find a solution/answer before next game (April).

*sigh*
mood: worriedworried
 
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At 5:30 this morning...  
01:03pm 22/09/2009
 
 
firesshadow
At 5:30 this morning I set down my controller after playing a great game that had launched at midnight, called Halo 3 ODST.

At 5:30 this morning my mother woke up and walked by my room to go to the bathroom before returning to her room to sleep.

At 5:30 this morning my uncle was apparently just laying down to sleep.

At 5:30 this morning... My grandfather passed away in his bed at the nursing home after getting up, going to the bathroom and thanking one of the nurses for a good dinner earlier that night.

I'm not sure how I feel about this. For the most part I think I had buried him in my mind, as he was barely there anymore. Every now and then the Donald Beaulieu I that I knew shown through, but for the most part he was a confused and lost soul trying to understand where he was and what was going. I think I am more sad about that time then the event of his passing. He died in his sleep which is much better off then my grandmother who died in a hospital bed shaking violently from an inability to breath because of the damage done to her lungs by smoking. And apparently he died happy having had a good meal, been sleeping well and just alleviated himself.

I hope there is an afterlife where you are given a place where you will be happy for all eternity, because if there is this man who worked three jobs just to keep a family running, who went to WWII to help defend his family, home and country, and who was equal parts kind father figure and hard ass teacher to I and my brother, deserves such a place.
mood: sadsad
 
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Get it on!  
02:27pm 28/08/2009
 
 
firesshadow


This is brilliant so I am sharing it everywhere, sorry if you already caught it on Facebook!
mood: gigglygiggly
 
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Fragging Awesome Fan Short for Dark Tower  
11:07am 28/07/2009
 
 
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Love Language thing.  
09:44am 28/07/2009
 
 
firesshadow

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 9
Acts of Service: 8
Physical Touch: 7
Words of Affirmation: 4
Receiving Gifts: 2


Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz
 
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Life and it's silly complications...  
09:23am 03/07/2009
 
 
firesshadow
Some of you may know of my recent car problems. If not the short version is that the Hrysler, nickname for my current car, was going to be repaired for a few things, but I was told that the repairs I requested, plus a couple others they found would cost more than the value of the vehicle. So this means it wouldn't pass inspection without some serious money. It's sticker was due at the end of June... this meant car shopping for me.

Now I don't have a lot of money set aside for this kind of thing... My mom offered to help me, but even with her help it seemed I was doomed to a very old and crappy car. I started applying for financing with a few places. I was repeatedly shunted...

I can across a dealership in Taunton which had a very interesting car, a 2000 Toyota Solara. And while it's mileage was a little high for the asking price(128k for $5k), everything else about the car sings out to me as being what I desire and need in a vehicle. This combined with the fact that with regular maintenance some Toyotas can reach 300k miles has sold me on.

So I applied for financing after a lot of help from the guy there, and we got the ball rolling. Yesterday afternoon I had to call them to find out, but they told me I had been rejected. One of the reasons was that the car had more miles than they liked to finance for. He told me he would see if he could get me financed for the same amount on a lower mile vehicle.

Most of my hope lost I decided on a car I had been keeping an eye on that would merely service me as a vehicle and nothing more. Eventually my mom calls me into her room and hand me her headset... confused I take it and put it on. She plays a message from her phone... I got approved! for that vehicle!!! FUCK YEA!!!!!!!!

So I am all psyched, have to call the loan guy and get this thing all settled and should have a car by the end of the day!

The specs can be found here: http://www.autotrader.com/dealers/inview/detail.jsp?dealer_id=80880&dealership_view_name=www.tauntonrehobothauto.com&ct=u&car_id=264043292

And here are some pics of what the car looks like, not the exact one, but it's the right year and color:




mood: excitedexcited
 
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Fucking fail all over the place today!  
09:09pm 04/06/2009
 
 
firesshadow
So on Tuesday I got assigned to what is known to our players as Super Secret, Vast and Mysterious. I was a little worried about what this would do to what I normally work on, which is game systems(things like crafting, items and other things related to rules and non-standard game play in the game), but according to my boss this was more important at the time. So I begin this project which I am told is supposed to be done by the end of the week.

Well it started off lovely, since I couldn't actually access SSV&M on my computer for some reason. So I write a bug related to that. Today it comes down that someone figured it out. It was a firewall related issue... something I have been having far too much of since they did an update with it.

So this fixed I begin my work on SSV&M, two problems present themselves. 1) I am finding way, way to many bugs. 2) Because of one my work is being slowed severely... and it is supposed to be done by *drum roll* Yesterday! That's right... they didn't tell me they wanted it done Wednesday, but that was the last day for check-ins on the project... so all these bugs I am finding... yea they aren't gonna be fixed for another week or two...

So being stalwart I tell the people I usually game with Thursday nights that I won't be there because I want to pull some OT and get this as close to done as possible, just in case someone makes some last minute check-ins. (check-ins = bug fixes)

Well disappointed, my friends/co-workers understand. So I run off to grab dinner. I return and after eating begin work anew. My next issue comes soon in the form of me needing to ask a question of a superior... one which is not present despite the need of this to get done. So I press on, taking notes and such for questions to ask the next day.

Only an hour into my OT and something goes horribly wrong... SSV&M goes down. Meaning it cannot be accessed anymore and thus no longer tested. Meaning I have wasted time (the last hour plus the late drive home), money (dinner) and effort (canceling my attendance to my game so that I can make sure this gets done). To add insult to injury the DM for our game that night has already left, so we can't even make that up.

So... I do what any other individual who is angered by their wasted effort after fighting through set back after set back... I rip off my headset and throw it down on my desk in defeat, specifically in the direction of my keyboard... which lies right in front of my monitor... That's right... it bounced! Then proceeded to crash into the monitor at a much higher velocity than I had believed I had thrown said headphones. My left monitor is now trashed with a giant set of impact cracks in it.

At this point I wholly and fully gave up... I put in a ticket for a request for a new monitor with our IT department and left. Tomorrow oughtta be interesting indeed!

... and no the icon is not a coincidence... I think it fits perfectly.
mood: aggravatedaggravated
 
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